Category: These are the days to remember…


Owling

A few weeks ago, I found myself walking in the snow covered Lions Woods just north of my house. It had snowed a good six inches throughout the day and once my relief (aka husband) came home, off I went to my very own personal sanctuary.

It was dusk and big flakes were still falling, coating everything in the woods. Right when you enter the woods you encounter a very old pine grove that is stunning. Stunning in the sense that it centers you, stilling the resonating places within that need quieting. These old evergreens have a way of putting me at rest the moment I enter, particularly with the hush of snow that comes over one, that really deep quiet of snow.
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I start walking and within a few paces I hear the hoot of an owl not far off. Amazed, I stop in my snowy tracks. I walk a bit farther and I hear it calling to me again. I stop. What a magical sound that was: the deep quiet of the snow and the hooting owl. Stunning in the sense that I felt so special to be able to catch the brilliance of the woods in that very moment. No one else was there in that moment but me.

I keep walking, hearing the owl calling now and then. From the distant trail, I can see someone coming with a dog that is running. They approach quickly and before I know it there is the most extraordinary thing before me: a man “cross country skiing” with 2 large ropes attached to his dog like reigns pulling him along. What a smart dog owner! They both looked like they were having fun. They went a bit past me and turned around and as the man “cross country skied” past me a second time, he says in a Santa Claus sort of voice, “Beautiful isn’t it…that owl in the woods.” And off he went. I felt stuck in my tracks and mesmerized by the entire experience.

I fear the owl was not so keen on the dog/skiing man contraption and did not call to me from that point on. I only walked for a bit longer and turned around for my little toesy-woesy’s were getting cold. I came home straight away and told Audrey about the owl and she was dazzled.

We have checked out from the library a book many times because I, in particular, really enjoy it. It is called Owl Moon. I believe it is an older book. The story goes something like this: a father takes his small daughter out owling in the woods as if it is a family rite of passage. To go owling involves bravery, patience, and utmost quiet and, I guess, the ability to keep up with your long-legged dad. The woods are captivating, the moon is powerful and bright and in the end they hear an owl and even spot it in the tree. Audrey and I were inspired to do this ourselves. There is another children’s book we adore called “Miss Spider” and there is one short story where she takes one of her little adopted children on a “listening walk”. Owling and listening walks have a pull on little Audrey Anne’s curious and adventurous heart.
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So off we went tonight, owling in Lions Woods. It was dark, there was not much moon, a sliver in fact. The woods were thick with darkness, the snow was packed down under our feet. We had flashlights in our hands but I found that the beam of the light made it more eerie. Quiet and some more quiet. We started in and I bent down to look under the many layers of hoods and hats into my daughter’s eyes to make sure she didn’t have on her wide eyed owl panic look. Nope. She was game for adventure. We walked on and ever so often we would let out a hoot of our own, first me and then Audrey echoing, calling to the owl. Stop, listen, listen more deeply. Nothing. Keep walking. We repeated this for some time until we were deep in the grove of pines and still no owl calling to us. I was the one to turn us ’round and head back. I think Audrey could have kept walking in those woods, searching, waiting, listening. What a remarkable little owl watcher she is.

As we came out of the woods into the parking lot, she says to me, “That was fun!” I smiled.
“Were you scared at all?”, I asked her.
“Nope.”
“I was.”

Awakening to the song sung over me…

When Ivan and I were first married, we lived in this little 2-bedroom apartment on the 3rd floor of this little building in Skokie near Lincolnwood. I remember this home fondly, as most couples probably do looking back on their first home together as a newly married couple. One of the things I loved most about it was that I could clean it in one afternoon; it was that small. It was sunny, warm and a short walk from one of my favorite sanctuary’s: Emily Oaks Nature Center. I would go there early in the morning, to walk, to run, to be alone, to be quiet.

I remember Ivan would get up early in the morning around 5:45am. When he would leave for work, he would turn on Rita Springer in the office and let it lull me from my slumber into a quiet and wakeful state. I felt the words of these songs washing over me and orienting me to what is true, noble and good.

This morning, I came down the stairs with groggy eyes, stiff joints and two girls in my arms and out of our little orange office came the melodies and powerful voice of Rita. Ahhhhh. I felt loved by Ivan and let the music wash over me again.

What a wonderful memory.

five things for sure

Whenever my mom comes to visit:
[bang, bang] I am guaranteed that my stove top will be sparkling clean, so very much so, that you could apply makeup in the reflection of its surface.

[bang, bang] All my copper pots will have been buffed to perfection exuding their warm colored bottoms.

[bang, bang] Some item of clothing or linen will be doused in Patchouli oil so that we can remember her without much effort when she leaves.

[bang, bang] At least two really good belly laughs where my urethral sphincters threaten to cave in and release a full bladder of urine down my leg in the middle of a Thrift store or some such store.

[bang, bang] A blessing when she leaves. The kind where she wraps her arms around me and won’t let me go and she inevitably starts crying but you know that she really speaks the blessing from her inner most parts and means it. So I let her hold me and accept her blessing.

*In case you were wondering, the [bang, bang] is Brendan (my blog nerd/web master’s) silly way of creating a bullet. I thought it worked.

I have these moments that I like to coin “these are the days to remember”. Those moments where you force yourself to pause, feel it, smell it, take it all in, absorb the full experience and mark it down like turning the corner on the top of a page in a great book you are reading. I have these moments pretty regularly. I always think I need to capture them and bottle them up like fairy dust. But the point of these sweet little flickers of life is to simply enjoy them.

Tonight was one such encounter.
I made a delicious dinner of homemade enchiladas with Mexican rice. I love making food and setting it in front of people and watching them thoroughly enjoy themselves, savoring every little bite and being oh, so tempted to lick the plate. I then sent the girls upstairs with Ivan for bedtime routines while I jacked up the volume on my little boombox in the kitchen and listened to Bill McGlaughlin’s commentary on Joseph Haydn’s symphonies. I love this show and find it super calming and enlightening. I washed up the dishes, wiped down all the counters, swept the floor, made chicken stock and then traipsed out to the garden to begin harvesting the magnificent rhubarb.

And this is where the “these are the days to remember” moment came in…
I called up the stairs to my amazing daughter, Audrey Anne, “Audrey, you want come chop some things with me?” And down the old wooden stairwell comes her sweet little voice, “Yes, mommy!” I overhear her turn to her daddy and say, “Mommy wants me to help her chops some things,” with glee in her voice. And down the stairs begins the little footsteps, [ahhh, how I long for an audio clip right about now]. It is one foot down, the other follows. One foot down, the other one follows, but at a super fast rate.

We put our aprons on; yes, Audrey Anne has her very own apron. She gets her own cutting board and some of your jaws are about to drop, her very own Wustof paring knife. I am not like many other mothers. I begin to teach her how to use the knife and how to chop the rhubarb just so. We admire the color of the rhubarb piling up like fish scales, iridescent and so “pretty” as Audrey says. We nibble on the rhubarb to see how tart it is; YIKES! Let’s add a little more sugar, Audrey. Gladly. We move on to cutting up the strawberries which also appear as eye candy thrilling our senses with the perfume and color. Audrey gets the idea that she needs “to dip” the strawberry in something. Sugar. Dip, suck, dip, suck. Kind of the way a toddler eats french fries and ketchup. They never get around to eating the french fry but somehow manage to suck down a 1/4 cup of ketchup. I teach Audrey how to cut the top of the strawberry off, describing the leaves like a head of crazy, fluffy hair. And then take the knife and cut it long ways. And then again. Every time she went to cut the strawberry, she would say, “This way, Mom?” Yes, Audrey.

We had a lot of fun and in the end we cut up so many strawberries we have five sandwich size ziplock baggies full to throw into the freezer for smoothies. Audrey was so proud of herself that before we put the bags in the freezer we had to traipse down to the basement, in aprons and all, and show Abuelita (her grandma) what we had done.

These are the days I will remember.

I leave you with the lyrics to the song written by Natalie Merchant…

these are days you’ll remember
never before and never since, I promise
will the whole world be warm as this
and as you feel it, you’ll know it’s true
that you are blessed and lucky
it’s true, that you are touched by something
that will grow and bloom in you
these are days you’ll remember
when May is rushing over you with desire
to be part of the miracles you see in every hour
you’ll know it’s true, that you are blessed and lucky
it’s true, that you are touched by something
that will grow and bloom in you
these are the days
that you might fill with laughter
until you break
these days you might feel a shaft of light
make its way across your face
and when you do
you’ll know how it was meant to be
see the signs and know their meaning
you’ll know how it was meant to be hear the signs and
know they’re speaking to you to you

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