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Jan
20

Do you ever wake up with a seemingly random song running through your head and sometimes escaping through your lips? It seems almost instant, even in the early morning hours, when you are still in a mixed up sleep/awake state…the song running through your mind, your heart. Almost as if you are being bathed in it.

I always take this as a clue. A hint of what God’s Spirit is calling up and out of me.

This morning this song was already being sung in my mind and heart.

Praise is rising, eyes are turning to You, we turn to You
Hope is stirring, hearts are yearning for You, we long for You
‘Cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day
In Your Pres- ence all our fears are washed away, washed away

Hear the sound of hearts returning to You, we turn to You
In Your Kingdom broken lives are made new, You make us new
‘Cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day
In Your Pres- ence all our fears are washed away, washed away

Hosanna, hosanna
You are the God Who saves us, worthy of all our praises
Hosanna, hosanna
Come have Your way among us
We welcome You here, Lord Jesus

Jan
19

Sunshine is a rare commodity these winter days where it seems like every other day it is snowing another 3-4 inches and the snow blowers are all rattling off their “2 cycle engine hummmm” in the neighborhood. The beaver full length fur coat has made its grand appearance on more than one occasion when the thermometer outside our kitchen nook window hits below that big zero degrees mark. I think our furnace ran nonstop for two or three days last week when our Winter Queen refused to let up on the frigid air blasting through every nook and cranny of this old and beloved house.

Despite all this, I treasure winter. I really do. I know; I’m strange. There is such deep and mysterious beauty to all of it. I have been enjoying my car rides to work in the morning–turning East onto the mini expressway in Waukegan and seeing that wide expanse of steaming water called Lake Michigan. The sun rising over it and penetrating the irises of my eyes. Passing the small stretch of woods coming into Lake Bluff and having the sun dance through the trees and play chase with me. I can feel it tapping me on the shoulder and running away and then pouncing on me again. And then I come into wide open areas where the sun is rapping on my window, coating what skin is visible and I feel winter freckles emerging. Ahhhh, sun.

I let the sun kiss me tenderly and it feels like medicine for my achy and arthritic soul.

Jan
18

Ivan is an incredible Mr. Mom. He really is. I am entering my second week of working two part time jobs and he is entirely in charge of the care of our two daughters, keeping the house in order, making dinner, doing the grocery shopping, and all the laundry that we seem to accumulate as if it was a fast growing bacteria.

In the first week of his Mr. Mom-hood, he baked bread a few times testing out a few different recipes that caught his attention (or should I say tantalized his taste buds) and he even did some sewing repairs for me. The laundry is consistently washed and folded and he has even embarked on a daunting project: organizing our basement.

My domestic god of a husband went to Sam’s Club today. Upon my return home from church and some time with some girlfriends, I discovered he had purchased a large sack of flour which we were out of (mostly because he has been baking so much bread). I didn’t really look that closely at the sack thinking it was the normal size bag I would purchase when I did all the shopping. I decided to make some yummy icebox cookies this eve and went to refill our flour container and I took a little closer look at this sack.

As I tried to heave it up on the chair to scoop some out into my smaller container I leave on the counter, I realized something was oddly different. And all of a sudden the scene from Anne of Green Gables came rushing over me as my eyes bulged with the realization that he has purchased 50 pounds of flour!!

Remember the scene where Matthew goes to the town general store with every intention of buying his Anne-girl a new dress with puffed sleeves. He is so shy and bashful, he can’t come right out and ask to see the dresses from the clerk. So the clerk asks him what he needs and he asks for a rake, and then some seed (which they are out of because it is Winter, silly boy) and then he says “sugar, brown sugar”. The clerk scoops up a 5lb sack of brown sugar. And finally, Matthew whispers under his breath, “I need a dress for Anne…with puffed sleeves.” And the clerk replies in her bubbly, almost too cheerful voice, “Why, Mr. Cuthbert, why didn’t you just say so?”

He comes home with the lovely powder blue dress with puffed sleeves and lays it in her room. The next scene is Marilla (his sister) working in the kitchen putting the brown sugar away and down the stairs comes Anne glowing with delight at her puffed sleeves. The scene ends with Marilla saying in a somewhat exasperated but tickled voice, “5 pounds of brown sugar, indeed!”

50 pounds of white flour, indeed!

Jan
12

I awoke at 5:56am and bolted upright as the realization flooded over me that I had not been awoken once by Scarlet’s grunts in the middle of the night. I slept for close to EIGHT hours straight! EIGHT freakin’ hours, people! This is amazing! I jumped out of bed with glee and felt like dancing a jig. I can’t remember the last time I got a full night of sleep. Before Scarlet was even born, I was waking up regularly throughout the night, either because I was suffocating from the weight of her pushing on my diaphragm or because I needed to pee the microscopic amount of urine that was permitted (space permitting in that abdomen of mine) urgently.

I feel thankful.
And I think I was real, real tired.

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